hey i'm an awesome surfer! april fools.

i have noticed my mood seems to suffer greatly on weekdays- not that it was really ever good with those. i definitely tweaked my neck and shoulders to the point where i'm still feeling it nearly a week later so i'm sitting at my boring desk job physically aching and mentally aching from a lack of inspiration.

it's no secret i think i'm relying on surfing to fill a pretty sizable gap in my life. i'm over 30, alone and at times somewhat baffled as to what direction my life is heading in. i've been trying to overcome some bad, unhealthy habits and distance myself from bad, unhealthy relationships. that's a lot of pressure- no wonder i'm sinking my board!

i got a good email from my teacher encouraging me to go the local shaper route and offering to help me look for a board, the more i think about it the more i like it as i definitely like unique things that fit my aesthetic. i want to get some nice color and design- i can't resist personalization! i am thinking ward coffey is my first choice, i love his work and he seems really nice to work with. i think just packing lots of volume without all the length will do me well. i have noticed, of course, that "big guy" surfboards are a thing. hi, i'm not a guy! should i be surprised? nah. glad they're nice enough to stress again, repeatedly, that these are surfboards for men. how boring.

anyway.. trying to overcome the landlock blues as best i can.. but feeling somewhat stir crazy already.